Everyday is a mystery living with two little brothers. Everything has changed, 4 years ago things were very different I could leave a hot tea sitting on the table without having to worry about it falling on a little boy or winding up with toy cars in it, I never had to worry about my underwear on a little boys head or having any or my jewellery taken out of my room and thrown down the hall. Four years ago i could do a puzzle without pieces being eaten, now when i bake anything I never get the beaters, I never thought I would be able to get used to the smell of dirty diapers and not want to gag or the sound of screaming children. Four years ago I never thought that I would get used to have little fingerprints all over everything I have.
All in all I love my little brothers Lukas and Michael, they may drive me crazy, but I could have ever asked for anything better, even when they do colour on my walls and computer and bed and cards but I just try and breathe!!!
Being silly and watching kids shows all the time is great it gives me an excuse when I watch them by myself, you just have to get used to watching the same Cars movie or How To Train Your Dragon movie over and over. Having little brothers make you so used to just wiping their face with your hand of whatever they have on them and not thinking twice to actually realize what it is.
The stress is back!
Last semester I ended the year stress out, nerves shot and I'm right back to the grind already. This week has been putting things majorly into perspective for me. Courses that I need to make up for, Professors telling you a million different things is driving me crazy. I need to make up for two media courses that I haven't been able to take because they either aren't offered I'm ineligible or it conflicts with my schedule and now that it has come down to the end and I am running to prove myself to my professors that I am in fact the bright eyed intellectual student that I strive to be. The conflict of information given is driving me crazy and I have been running from one end of the school to the other.
This week has really made me think about what it is that I want to truly do with my life. Do I go into advertising, do I continue school and get a bachelors in marketing, how much longer do I want to spend in school, who is going to hire me with the credentials that I do have, am I ready?
Hopefully this all get figured out and then I can focus on working my butt off and enjoying the things in life that I love to do.
I need a vacation!!!!
